I have failed. Lily has failed.
Oh, that’s not to say I’m giving up on her. I think there’s still something really good here, and I think there is certainly something to be learned here, and with a bit of course correction this can be recovered from. But right now, Lily is a failure.
I have been writing Lily for something like seven months now, and she still has almost no regular readers. Her YouTube channel has one subscriber, and that’s a relative of mine. She gets almost no views, no exposure, no nothing, even though everyone who I’ve shown her to thinks she’s really great. But I’ve failed. She’s a failure. I don’t know how to recover from this.
And it’s made worse that I’m starting to make continuity errors. There’s a glaring one between her diary and YouTube channel for last week, and it’s so big that I’m not even sure how to fix it. It’s impossible to fix without deleting a diary entry and YouTube video, and that may end up what I do today. But this is a problem. A huge problem.
I don’t know where to take her, now. But I’ve failed with her, and I’ve failed her.